March
Monday 12:27PM 03/01/04
Another month! And I didn't end last month well as I didn't make an entry on the last day of the month. Sorry, but I was busy getting ready for a dinner party tonight and just too damn tired to write about nothing, because that exactly what happened yesterday. Well nothing interesting. Did play tennis with Ted. Thank God for the diversion. Then it was shopping at Costco and then Publix. Then after cooking dinner it was working on the food for the party. Hope it all turns out good. Will have seven people. Shawn, Roger, Rich, Ted and George plus me and Dieter. Still have to clean the house today.
Rich bought flowers for the house when he and Dieter when shopping at the Swap Shop in Margate while I was playing tennis with Ted. So hopefully everything will look nice. And for once I beat Ted in tennis, 6 games to 2. It's great to be back exercising! But, lately I've been eating too much. As I've been cooking more with Rich here than I would if it were just Dieter and myself. And with more food on the table . . . well it's hard to resist. So, I don't expect to loose anymore weight until our house guest departs.
Funny how one changes over the years. I used to not have any control over my life. I was addicted to chat room (years ago), addicted to sex (not so many years ago) and wanted to go and do everything. Then I split up with Dieter and realized what was really important in life. Commitments! Now, when I see people that aren't in control of their lives, I can't respect them. Guess, I'm maturing and finally learning lessons that life serves up.
Dieter goes to the cancer doctor on Wednesday. Guess he will prescribe the oral chemo pills again. Don't expect them to tell us anything new. "Take a couple of pills and come back next month". It's a good way to make a living. Wednesday night I have another Dinner party. Will be just me, Dieter, Rich and Al. Al lives north of use and is a very nice man. We have known him since our early days at Chardee's. In fact, Al says we helped him come out of the closet as he wife had just died before me meet him. We took him to Haulover Beach. That's were I got to see his huge cut dick! And he's a wonderful person. I want me and Dieter to see more of him. Hopefully the three of us will become close friends. Rich and he dated once but it didn't work out at all. Never asked either what the problem was as that's their business. I did have sex with Al years ago and it was very nice. But now I'm not looking to have sex with him. I just want his friendship. That's not to say that I don't find him sexual attractive, because I do. It's just that if we have a sexual relationship it will be in the future (maybe if something happens to Dieter). Right now I just want us to be friends. I kind of am in the need of a fatherly figure to lean on while I'm going through this cancer thing with Dieter and he might be just what the doctor order for me. Time will tell.
Tuesday 7:05AM 03/02/04
Can't believe I forgot to put the March link on the main journal page yesterday. Well, I guess it was because I was rushing to get ready for the dinner party and Rich was looking over my shoulder. In the morning yesterday he and I had gotten in a disagreement about who was nominated for male supporting actor. He turned out to be right and I wrong. But while we were having our disagreement he spoke to me in a condescending tone of voice that he has a habit of using with Dieter and others when he disagrees with something said. Well I flat out told him "Don't use that condescending tone of voice with me!" Guess it comes from him teaching. Well, neither Dieter or I are a student of his. And I will not tolerate anyone speaking in that manner to me in my own house.
I've decided that from now on when I have guest there is two rules. First, no ones is to stay more than 10 days and second, they must have a car! It's just too inconvenient for me and Dieter to drive visitors to all the bars and nightspots they want to go. I didn't mind doing it the first time Rich was here but not this time. Dieter and I don't go out much and it's just to disruptive to cater to visitors travel needs. There an old saying about fish and visitors . . .
Back to the party. It went very well. Everyone loved the food and the mix of people worked out better than I thought it would. Will have another one one Wednesday night, but smaller. This time only four or five total.
Will go to the gym today. I think I go this morning. Ted is busy so we will not be playing tennis. I go to the gym and see all the morning guys. And later this week will go in the afternoon and see all the afternoon guys. Good, I need to see a couple of naked old men to cheer me up.
And tomorrow I'll have to go to Fort Lauderdale to check the PO Box. Of course I'll check out the Coral Ridge restroom. Never know what you'll see in there!
Thursday 7:59AM 03/04/04
I did go to the gym Tuesday afternoon. Rich went to ride the stationary bikes and I to the sauna. But while I was sitting on a bench facing the exercise room (the door wide open) I can see this old man, around 70yo, riding the nearest stationary bike. He was nice looking, neither chubby or skinny with strong hairy legs. Well, he was wearing a pair of shorts without a jockstrap or any underwear. And the leg of his shorts was gaped open and I could see his dick and his balls as plain as if he was naked. And each time he pumped the peddle on the cycle his dick and balls would bounce. I must have sat on the bench for ten minutes staring at the old man and getting a hard on watching his big dick and good sized balls doing a bounce dance. It was beautiful!
Then later in the sauna I watch several old men changing cloths in the locker room as I tugged on my foreskin while staring through the glass door of the sauna. It was a treat! Thank God for the gym!
Last night I had Al over for dinner. God! Was he sexy looking. He a very straight looking man (he was married and has grandkids . . . his wife died in 1996). He a little heavy, with thinning white hair, a hawk nose, and beautiful green eyes. He has a light complexion (which I love). His arm are thick and powerful. Al it always laughing. He has this strange way of tossing his head to the side, I think it's an uncontrollable tick. This awkward head movement makes him appear strange and for a long time kept me from really getting to know him. Dieter and I meet him in Chardee's soon after we arrived in Fort Lauderdale. And yes I've had sex with him a couple times. He has a huge dick! And baby, I mean BIG! But he and I haven't had sex for a long, long time.
Boy, last night he looked so good that I would have loved to have been in bed with him. I know he likes me too. I know I am threading on dangerous grounds inviting him to the house. But as I'm not planning on going to bed with him, I think it OK. This is the person that if something happens to Dieter, I just might go for. (Not that anything is going to happen to Dieter any time soon but he does have recurrent melanoma and I have to steel myself for the worse). Anyway for now I hope to see more of Al and really get to know him. Get close enough to him to know if he and I might be able to get a relationship going if something does happen to Dieter. OK, there's a lot of ifs. But when life is what way.
Anyway, I did enjoy having him over for dinner. I served rack of lamb encrusted with dried mint leaves, garlic mashed potatoes (cooked in chicken broth and garlic and then mashed with mayo and sour cream) and cauliflower (steamed with sautéed bread crumbs poured over the top). The meal was delicious! And Al was funny and joking as I sat across from him looking into his green eyes. He was talking to Rich, but had forgotten that he and Rich had gone to bed together years ago and it didn't work out....was a very big flop! I didn't remind him of the fact. All in all it was a wonderful evening. And of course last night all I dreamed about was Al! It was very sweet dreams.
Friday 7:56PM 04/05/04
Didn't seen any old men's dicks today. Didn't go to the gym. Went to the post office but didn't get a chance to go to the restroom near Silver Fox Cafe. Was a dull day.
Last night Rich's Plutonic friend, Steve, arrive from Iowa. Luckily he decided to rent a car at the airport. Didn't make any sense for me and Dieter to have to pick Steve up at the airport. He's a friend of Rich and not a friend of your. Steve did come over for dinner. I didn't take any pictures of him in an effort to save my camera the trauma. . . a face only a mother could love . . . but he is a nice guy . . . only likes young chicken . . . so I don't have anything in common with him.
I had to go the to PO Box so we took Rich over to the guest house where Steve is staying. So, Dieter and I had the apartment all to ourselves today and it felt great. Even had sex in the middle of the afternoon! Now that Rich has someone to hang around with and go the all the strip bars and other young stud places, he'll be out of our hair more. He leaves next Thursday and then we'll have the apartment back to yourselves. Like I said before. I think in the future any guest visiting must have transportation and can't stay longer than ten days. That's going to be my rule.
Dieter started his second round of his oral chemotherapy (Temozolomide) today. Don't know that it's doing any good. Haven seen any change in the spots of cancer on his leg. Hope the pills don't make him sick this time. He faired very well last time and hopefully it will be the same this time. But time is ticking away. If the Temozolomide isn't working then sooner or later the cancer will start spreading. So, time isn't on our side.
Got an invitation from Shawn and Roger for next Wednesday. They're having a big party. Inviting Rich's friend Steve and me and Dieter and I don't now who else. Should be fun.
I didn't play tennis with Ted today and will not play with him again until Sunday. He said he was going to Chardee's tonight and didn't know how late he would be out. So, he didn't think he would feel up to playing tennis. The last day we played on Thursday I bet him 6 game to 2, and before than 6 games to 1. I hope that my practicing is paying off. Hopefully its not just luck. I must say that since I started tennis, I haven't been depressed. Really helps to go to the court and bang the ball. Clears my mind. I think tennis is going to come in handy if Dieter's cancer gets worse.
Maybe tomorrow I'll go to the gym in the afternoon. In the morning I want to practice tennis. Anyway there aren't many old men in the gym on Saturday morning. But sometime in the afternoons there are some fresh faces. I guess I'll find out tomorrow.
Saturday 10:02PM 03/06/04
Rich told me and Dieter today that he's moving into a motel the last couple of days of his stay. I guess so that he'll be closer to his friend Steve. They went to Johnny's and then Boardwalk last nigh to watch the dancers. God, I hate going into those places. They dancers are all over you. Can't stand them putting their hands on me and asking me sexual questions. Just glad I'm not having to take Rich to those places. I did take him to Boardwalk and the dance bar at Dudes. But this time, I decided that I wasn't going out showing him the sights as I had just done that in January. This time I was going to stick to my routine. Which I pretty much have done.
I did take Rich to the gym with me this afternoon. He to ride a stationary bike, and me to sit in the sauna. I saw two new old men naked today. One was really to die for. He was so damn handsome! A little chubby, with a balding head, he looked down right eatable. His dick was very small but he had a bull size set of ball. I did enjoy eyeing him crotch. The other old man was skinny as a rail and looked to be about 78yo. He wasn't Jewish as he cock was uncut. He was a very grand fatherly looking old man. And then there was the old hair dresser from New York. His cock is cut and he's got some nice low hanging balls. He ugly as shit, but hey, I still enjoyed looking at his dick and balls.
So, I got my fix of staring at old dicks today. Rich's friend Steve picked him up soon after we got back from the gym, so Dieter and I had the place by ourselves tonight. So, I got to watch a Scifi movie while he followed the Martha Steward story. Was a nice evening
Tomorrow I guess I'll play tennis with Ted. I've been practicing. Wonder if I will beat him? We will see.
This is Dieter's second day taking his oral chemotherapy. So far he isn't reacting to it. Hopefully, he will not. We have two invitation to dinner this week. On Wednesday at Shawn and Roger's and another on Friday at George's condo. So it is going to be an eventful week. That is if Dieter doesn't get sick from his medication.
Ok, it Saturday night. Dieter just turned off the TV so I guess that my signal to sign off and go to bed.
Monday 8:26PM 03/08/04
Didn't do anything but play a little tennis with Ted yesterday. He beat me 6 games to 1. And I had practiced so hard Friday and Saturday. Oh well, can't win them all. Rich left in the morning with his friend Steve and didn't come home until late (about 2:00AM) so it was like not having a guest in the apartment. Was nice. Again to day he and Steve drove to the Keys and I don't expect him back until late again. Just reinforces what I have already decided, guest must have their own transportation!!! That's going to be a golden rule with me from now on.
I did beat Ted in tennis today but it was touch and go for a while. Turn out to be 6 games to 5! That was a squeaker. This afternoon, I went to the gym. The guy with the very thick dick, the one that sits in the sauna with his bathing suit over his head, was in the sauna. I really enjoy staring his his thick cut dick while his head was hidden under his bathing suit. I swear his dick must be six inches around. I just wonder if it gets any thick when it's hard. And it hangs down about five inches even when it's soft. Now, I would love to try to suck his dick, but I think his might be too big for me to handle.
I'm going to finish filming Pete Kinky Old Men next week. Got two shoots lined up. Hopefully I'll have a new guy, a handsome gray bearded bear, that will be a great addition to the models I 've used. I also hope to have Nakedwilly and Jim (the guy that sticks the tub up his dick) also doing scenes (separately). I really look forward to shooting a scene with Nakedwilly. He is so sexy in person. He's got that thick rock hard dick that is wonderful to suck. And I'm going to use a big dildo on him and hopefully fuck him. So it's going to be interesting to say the least. Just hope it all works out. I think I will have the video out by the end of March. "Pete Kinky Old Men" be watching for stills from the shoot. Starting on March 18th or a few day later. The price is going to be $30 (90 minutes long) for the DVD. And what will make it kinky is scenes of pissing, rimming, fucking, and dildo action. I'm hoping it is going to turn out to be one of my best efforts. But, time will tell.
Tuesday 9:39PM 03/09/04
Well, got rid of my house guest. Rich move into a motel for the final two days of his stay to be closer to the action and his friend Steven. Was a wonderful feeling to come home from visiting my P.O. Box in Fort Lauderdale and know it was going to be just me and Dieter in the apartment.
I did sneak into the restroom at the Coral Ridge Mall but it was empty. There were a table of old men who only like old men sitting across from the entrance. But no one followed me inside. Guess, I wasn't old enough for any of them.
Played tennis with Ted this morning and he beat me soundly. Damn, I hate to loose! My knees are killing me but tomorrow I'll be out there practicing. That the way I am.
We are going over to Shawn and Rogers for dinner tomorrow night. I'll see Rich and Steven at the dinner. That is, we'll go if Dieter feel up to it. Never know when he's going to get a reaction from his medication. Tomorrow is the last day he takes the oral chemotherapy drug this month. Sometimes it sort of hits him near the end.
So, my day wasn't exciting but I really enjoyed it. Got to play tennis, got rid of my house guest, got lots of orders in the mail and the temperature reached 78F. What more could I ask for? Life is good at the moment. Well my knees are aching like hell, but hopefully they will strengthened in the coming weeks or I might just have to take a break from tennis. My weight is down to 195lbs. Want to loose 15 more pounds! Will take a few months as I'm not on a diet. But, so what. I'm in no rush.
I'm looking forward to doing the two shoots next week to wind up the video "Pete's Kinky Old Men." It going to have to be 90 minutes as I think there will be too much footage for just a 60 minute video, but will not know for sure until I start editing the video. Sometime I go in with one idea and then come out with a entirely different product than what I had imagined. Again, time will tell.
Tomorrow I'll try to go to the gym in the afternoon. I want to see the old man that puts his bathing suit over his head in the sauna. Love staring at his huge, thick dick. Of course I will tell all.
Thursday 9:19PM 03/11/04
Dieter and I went to a dinner party at Shawn and Roger's last night. Rich and Steve was there along with two other guest that we hadn't met before. It was fun. Now tomorrow night we go to George's for dinner. Gee, Dieter and I are becoming party animals. Not!
Ted beat me in tennis today. And that's after I practiced like hell yesterday. I guess my problem is I'm get to intense and am just trying too hard. I'll have to learn to relax if I'm going to beat Ted. I'm not yet going to admit that the skinny little shit is a better player. And if he is, well, I just practice more!
Got to the gym this afternoon and saw some new old men naked! Gee, I just keep seeing new guys naked. It's great. The supply of old men here seems endless. One of the old men was chubby with longish white hair and bad legs (discolored) but he had a thick uncut dick and a pair of really large balls. Then other old man had a beautiful body and was completely bald. His pubic hairs were gray as were the hair on his chest. He's a really handsome man. His cut dick was small as were his balls. Still, with his looks I would put him to the head of the line.
God, I'm tried. My knees makes me feel half crippled. Just wonder when I'm going to get in shape. Maybe my knees are just too far gone. But I'm not going to give up on this old body yet. There is still a chance to whip it into shape.
I'm looking forward to the shoots next week. Hope I can really catch some great action on camera. The mix Monday will be interesting. Then Jim comes on Wednesday. Hopefully will get some kinky action.
Have to go to Fort Lauderdale to mail some videos and check my PO Box tomorrow. Wonder how busy the restroom will be at Coral Ridge? Guess I find out. But haven't seen too much the last couple of times I've gone there. Either too many old men in the bathroom or none! Seems that there is no in between.
Dieter's has finished this month's chemotherapy medicine without any side affects. That's good. Don't see any signs that it's working. But the doctor ordered blood samples taken a couple of days before Dieter's next appointment and will be able to tell something from the results of the lab test, I guess? Anyway, Dieter is feeling great and loving life, so what more can we ask for.
I expected to hear from Al this week. I had him over for dinner last week. Thought he might call for us to meet him at Tropics or something. I really like him. He's always humorous and fun to be around. And he got that damn big dick. Well, I'm not going to see it or get to play with it, still it's nice to just look at him. I'm sure that I'll get a call from him later this week or maybe next. If not, hell, I give him a call.
Ok, I'm bone tried. Got a busy day tomorrow! Later.
Saturday 9:50PM 03/13/04
The party at George's Friday was wonderful. He's an excellent cook! And the two other guest that he had invited were very interesting. One was German and in his 70's. I remember him from Haulover beach. And what I remember most is how hung he is. Enjoyed conversing with him, but enjoyed his friend (50's) even more. George has some very, very nice friends. Both Dieter and I really enjoyed ourselves. I would like to see more of his two friends, but I rather doubt that I will. It was my lucky day when I first had lunch with George and we hit it off so well. He's a hell of a nice man.
Well, nothing else exciting happened on Friday. My knees were hurting so I didn't even practice on Friday. I did go out this morning. Don't know if it did a damn bit of good. Thought I had a good practice. Guess, I know tomorrow if it helped when I play Ted.
I have the shoot on Monday. Hope all goes well. Do want a good shoot.
I don't know if it's the coming shoot that has me depressed or if it's something else. Oh, well, it's just one of those things I have to go through. I look forward to doing a scene with nakedwilly. He's hot and sexy man. I just hope that he and the new model click. Would really make for a good shoot if they get it on hot and heavy.
Yea, I think I'm depress over the coming shoot. I want so much for it to be great! I want this video to be one of the best! Will it? Hell, who knows until I do the editing.
Well, I haven't heard from Rich since he returned to Iowa. Guess he sensed that I wasn't too happy with the length of his visit nor the way he tried to manipulate me into doing exactly what he wanted. It was shameful how he used his friend Steve. Guess he thought I would be just as easy to manipulate. I think it's fair to say that our friendship will never be the same. Funny how there are defining moments in friendships. His visit was one of those defining moments. I saw him for real and it wasn't the person that I thought I knew. His life is a mess! He is totally out of control. I wish him well.
Damn, I certainly don't win any points by expressing my inner thoughts. Rich probably was going to buy a condo through me. I guess what will not happen once he reads my journal. Hey, money isn't everything.
I think I enjoy looking at the pictures that I post as much as any of my subscribers. Damn, I get a hard on every day from the pictures that I post. I guess if it wasn't for looking at the picture I might be out beating the bushes looking for sex? Looking at all the pictures of naked men and seeing them real time in the gym helps me to keep my dick in my pants.
Monday 8:14PM 03/15/04
Well, did the shoot today. The new guy e-mailed yesterday that he couldn't make it. I half expected that. So it was just me an Nakedwilly. You know, I really can't judge anymore how good or bad the shoots are. If the quality of the tape turns out fine (I had to used less expensive min-DV cassettes) then I would say it was a very good shoot. Had one scene that didn't make it because the camera angle was wrong, but I did fuck nakedwilly and use the dildo on him. Well see for yourself http://enjoyoldpics.com/stills/kinky/pics.html Also encluded in the video will be a shoot I did with Ed several months ago. I don't know if I'll put in the shoot I'm doing on Wednesday or not. If I do it'll be about 90 minutes long instead of 60minutes. Will wait until I see how the shoot goes. So for I plan on the 60 minute version. Anyway the price will remain at $20.
Being that the shoot didn't go perfect, I'm very depressed. Was irritable to Dieter all afternoon. Guess I also felt guilt doing the shoot. Ted took Dieter shopping (window shopping) from 10:00AM to after 2:00PM.
I don't want to be in any more of my videos! I wish I could find some nice new old men who are exhibitionist enough to be in videos. Hey, they don't do it for the money. Nakedwilly just did a video for, I think, older4me and they paid him $160. The old man that did the video with nakedwill didn't cum so he got nothing! Well $106 isn't going to make anyone rich is it. And nakedwilly was only doing it for the fun of it. He said he get so many e-mails and calls that he has all the sex he could possibility want. Now that's what you get out of being in videos! Sex . . . lots of sex. So, if you know anyone over 60 that's want to be in a video give him my e-mail address.
If it doesn't rain tomorrow morning, I'll play tennis with Ted. I think that in order to beat him, I'm going to have to relax. I don't accept that he's better than I am. Only that he play better when we are in a game situation. I'll come around. Practice always pays off. And as always, I'm willing to put in the hours. So, I expect to improve faster than Ted does.
If it does rain, I'll go with Dieter to Fort Lauderdale. He has an appoint with his regular doctor. Otherwise I'll meet Dieter somewhere, maybe the Alibi for lunch as I do have to go in to pick up my mail from my PO Box. Damn, almost forgot! They are remodeling the restroom at Coral Ridge! It was closed last week. Now, I bet than when they are finished it's not going to be as gay friendly. Meaning, I bet you will not be able to see the man's dick next to you when your taking a piss! I bet they put partitions between the urinals! Or go to only stalls! We will see! But the good old days at the Silver Fox Cafe might be over!
On Saturday my sister is driving down from Dothan, Alabama with my two nephews, 1l and 14 and they will stay with us until we drive them back on March 29. So it going to be a busy week. I guess the first house rule that I give them is keep away from my computers. My sister doesn't even let them watch MTV. She would kill me if they got a look at all the pictures of naked old men on my computer. I'm going to have my hands full! They call me Uncle Pete and they called Dieter, Uncle Dieter. Of course my sister knows that I'm gay but I don't know if the kids know? Oh, well, they are very bright so I think they have or will have figured it out by the time it's time for them to leave.
And of course during all this I going to be editing "Pete's Kinky Old Men". Well actually, if I make it only 60 minutes I have it almost finished. Only if I put the scenes with Jim in will I have to do more editing. And I'll make that decision when I see just how hot the scenes with Jim turn out to be.
Gee, writing in my journal helped. I'm not as depressed as when I sat down. So, I guess now is as good a time as any to stop.
Wednesday 8:27PM 03/17/04
Nothing happened yesterday worth writing about. Was suppose to have the shoot with Jim today. Someone called me on my cell phone and all I heard was "Pete" before my phone dropped the call. Guess it was Jim calling to say he couldn't make it. I sent him an e-mail but didn't get any response. I sort of expected him not to show when I sent an e-mail last night asking him to be on time and didn't get any answer. Funny, he's been hounding me for months to use him in another video. Then he's a no show. Go figure!
I'm late doing everything today because I edited the video and took it to the production company to have a master copy run off. "Pete Kinky Old Men" has Nakedwilly and me in a scene and then Ed and me. It runs 60 minutes. I'll have the master back tomorrow so I can start burning DVD's from it. I had to use cheaper Sony cassettes and I'm concerned if the DVD's will be as high quality as previous ones (not counting Pete's Orgy as the lighting wasn't up to par). The guy at the production company said that they always us the cheaper Sony cassettes instead of the expensive Sony cassettes with the memory chip in them. So, I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I review the master DVD.
Tried to run off a master with my program but the shit thing never has worked with DVD's. I can do vcd but not DVD. Hey, that's life.
I don't know if I'm playing tennis with Ted tomorrow or not. Oh, yea, almost forgot. He beat the shit out of me yesterday. My serve stinks! Got to work on it. Even if I play tennis, I'm going to try to go to the gym tomorrow. I need to see my favorite old naked men in the sauna. Damn, isn't any of them ever going to make a pass at me? I guess not.
I got a e-mail from Rich last night. It was very cool as I expected it would be. Hey, I'm not going to be his or anyone else's flunky. He should have rented a car? How many people go on vacation knowing they are thirty minutes away from the gay bars and relies on their host to take them around? Well, I did it the week he as here in January, but hell if I was going to do it this time. My guest can damn sure rent their own car if they want to come visit me. I'm not a bus driver.
God, I sound like a nasty old man! But hell, Dieter's got cancer and heck, he and I don't want to go shopping all over Broward county and hitting the young dance bars until 1:00AM. We like living our quiet life here in the complex. And everyday is important to us. We want to spends our days doing what we want as must as possible.
Yea, it's Saint Patty day. So what. Dieter bought corn beef and cabbage for me to cook, I do it tomorrow. It'll taste just as good. And of course we are not going near the bars tonight. Maybe we'll go to Tropics early Friday night. It'll be our last chance to go to a gay bar (at least mine) until we come back from taking my nephews home. Tropics is still the best gay bar for meeting and seeing old men! I look forward to going out Friday night.
Thursday 9:27
I didn't get to the gym today. Ted and I played tennis this morning. He beat me again . . . 6 games to 1. Shame on me for letting the little shrimp beat me. But then we played four more games and it was 2 games to 2. I won his serves and he won on my serves. I beat him by out hitting him and lost by serving so awful. Does double fault mean anything to you?
But before I went out to play tennis, I did coax my DVD soft ware into producing a master copy of Pete's Kinky Old Men. It took hours! Slow as molasses! I picked up the master from the production company this afternoon. And guess what? There's no difference in the quality of my and theirs! That is great news for me! And also the new cheap cassettes worked just as well as the ones I have been paying $25 a piece for. The cheap one only cost $19 for three. That's quite a difference in price.
Dieter and I went to Costco this afternoon to food shop for the coming week. (My nephews are coming to visit and I guess my sister and brother-in-law will also stay for at least a couple of days and might even stay the entire period. That's fine with me as they can drive the kids back and save me and Dieter the trip to Dothan, Alabama!) Anyway, we were walking down one isle at Costco and suddenly I found myself staring at a stack of tennis rackets. They were Wilson rackets and called "The Hammer". I made the mistake of stopping and pulling one out of its carrying case. It felt great! Like it belonged in my hand. Well it does now as I bought it. Now, my old racket (two months old) was an el cheapo that I bought at Walmart. The "Hammer" cost twice as much but was still inexpensive (that how cheap a racket I bought at Walmart).
So when I got home, instead of going to the gym to look at naked old men, I did something much more important. I took the new racket to the tennis court and practiced! It felt wonderful! I couldn't believe the different in it and the el cheapo! It seems to have much more power and control. Well, power hasn't been a problem with me as I am a fairly strong guy, but control has been a big problem. And when I got back home I looked at the strings of my old racket and the weren't aliened right. Guess all I probably needed was new strings. Anyway let's see if the new rackets helps me the next time I play Ted. Don't know when that will be. Maybe Sunday or Monday.
See, it doesn't take much to bring a little excitement into my life. A new racket!
Going to be interesting to see how my new videos sells. It's the first time that I fucked someone on camera. Was sort of fun. I think I'll do it more often. Some guys love to see fucking on videos and that what some of my videos have been missing. Well not anymore! I think for amateur videos, mine are some of the best. Just hope that I can take them up another notch in the coming months and make some truly classic ones. Time will tell. I am putting a new ad in Hot Spots. Maybe a new STAR will come forth! Hope so! I do need some new faces in my videos. Well, actually Ed is very new! I hope that from now on each new video will have at least one new model! Actually I'm not going to make a video unless I do have someone new to star in it.
I wish that I could say that I'll be going to the gym tomorrow. But I just don't know. I have to go to Fort Lauderdale to mail videos and pick up orders. And tomorrow night two friends (one a Polish friend of Dieter's) have invited us out to dinner. We will probable meet at Tropics first and after drinks go for dinner. But believe me, I'll get to the gym as soon as possible. I want to see some dicks and balls and fantasize about having sex with the old men I see in the locker room and the sauna.
OK, it bed time for Bonzo!!!!
Saturday 10/27PM 03/20/04
My nephews were so eager to get there that they talked their parents in driving down last night. They left Dothan about 11:00PM. They arrived at the condo about 8:00AM this morning. It's been a whirl wind in the apartment since they arrived. But, I've really enjoyed their visit. I couldn't upload pictures to the website until they the boys were asleep. So that's why the pictures are so late today.
Nick, the oldest boy (14yo) was beside himself to go fishing. So I took him to Walmart and bought him a rod and reel. He caught a large catfish in one of the lakes late today. His father Ricky cleaned and filet it. So I guess we'll have catfish for supper tomorrow night. Maybe Nick will catch some more, if not I'll buy some from the store to make enough for everyone.
Last night Dieter and I went to Tropics to meet two friends visiting from New York City. We were all chatting away when Al came in. God, he looked sexy. He's not a hansom man, but he sure turns me on. He came over and said hello but I guess he didn't want to interrupt us so drifted off to talk with some guys he knew. Later, on my way from the bathroom I stopped and chatted with him a moment. I told him I was crazy about him. He kissed me and told me he was afraid to call me. I said I would call him. Which I will do later next week. I do think I have to meet with him one of these days.
OK, I dead tired. Time for me to hit the sack.
Monday 10:23PM 04/22/04
Went to the beach Sunday with My sister and her husband and the kids. Reminded me of when I used to live at home and go down to Panama City, FL beach. Boring! Watch the kids play in the waves. Play with the kids in the wave. See old men with their wives but have to play like you're not looking at the old men. Let me tell you, their visit has given me a dose of the reality of living back in a straight community and it's not for me. So, my question is answered. And the question was . . . should I move back to Dothan, Alabama if something should happen to Dieter.
NO WAY! Just can put the genie back in the bottle once he's out.
I'll keep my gay ass right down here in Fort Lauderdale and make do with what comes my way. I'm sure that would be better than trying to live in a straight community!
I finally played tennis with Ted this morning (Monday) using my new tennis racket. We stopped at 6 games each. My racket makes the difference! I think in the coming weeks, I'll be able to move ahead of Ted. I pulled a muscle in my leg today but hung on to tie the games up 6 to 6. Felt good to play better.
Tomorrow, Ted is going with all of us to the Orioles spring training game in Fort Lauderdale. The two boys are very excited about going! I'm not so excited, but hey, maybe I'll enjoy it. I'm only going for the kids as I do want them to have a good time on their vacation down here. They leave on Friday and then things will be back to normal and I'm sort of ready for that. I can't look at even the pictures on the website with them around. But I love them and so I trying as hard as possible to make sure that they have a wonderful time. Hopefully then they look back at their childhood one of the nice memories will be their trip to Uncle Pete and Dieter's!
The restroom at Carol Ridge is still under construction. Don't know when they will be finished but I would guess in about two more weeks. It's going to be interesting to see what the men bathroom looks like when they are finished remodeling it. I'll keep everyone posted.
Tuesday 9:31 03/23/04
Took my sister, her husband and the kids to the Orioles and Montreal game today. Ted went along. I hadn't been to a baseball game since Frank took me to a Met's game in 1969. And I was so surprised how much better it is at the ballpark than watching it on TV. The crack of the bat hitting the ball. The loud pop of the ball hitting a glove! Damn those are awesome sound that you just don't get watching a base ball game on TV!
But, hey, the best part of the game was taking a piss (which I did at least three times). Some of the old men you see at a baseball game are to die for. I followed an old 70yo man using a cane into the bathroom and took a urinal two down from him. I glanced over at him while pissing and took quick notice of his uncut dick. He saw me watching and started to play with his dick. Well my dick popped up big and hard and his stretched out longer and longer. His dick wasn't thick but it was long and had plenty of foreskin. When he smiled at me, I just moved over to stand beside him. And we both stood there jacking our dicks for several minutes. He spoke to me in that French Canada version of French. We talked a little while we watched each other jacking off. The old French Canadian was really handsome. He had beautiful blue eyes. He face was dark tanned. And, damn, I love his long dick. He asked me if I would meet him tomorrow at Terra Mar Beach. I said yes, knowing that I wouldn't be able to get there.
It was a wonderful experience. And beside his dick, I spied on at least three other old men's dicks. One was cut and thick. The old man holding it was burly and bald headed. I would have loved to have sucked off his thick dick. When I went back to my seat, Ted looked at me as though saying. "Yea and what took you so long."
So, I think I'll got to go to some more balls games! I do believe it's a great place see old men's dicks! Oh, yea, the Orioles lost 3 to zip!
Wednesday 10:24PM 03/24/04
Gee, nothing very interesting happened today. Went to the same Chinese restaurant twice, one for lunch and tonight for dinner. The kids enjoyed it, more that I did. Went for lunch with Dieter's friends from New York. They came back to the apartment and spent a couple of hours visiting with us.
Tomorrow I'm taking the kids to another baseball game. Hope I see some more old men's dicks. Guess I will not get to the gym before Friday at the earliest. Even though I have enjoyed my nephews, it'll be great to get back into my routine again. I don't think my routine will be altered much by your next two sets of visitors.
They all want to get to the stadium early. Well, I agree. They want to get their early to get autographs, I want to get there early to hang around the bathroom and hopefully follow some old man into the bathroom and get a good look at his dick. Now, I'm sure that I want meet and talk to someone as nice as the old Canadian I met on Tuesday, but just maybe I'll get to see some old man with a big dick, just maybe. Hell, it's worth going early.
My brother-in-law, Ricky, was complaining about how open the urinals were at the ballpark on the way home for the Chinese restaurant tonight. And the kids agreed. The oldest boy said he would use the urinal. He said he would only go in a stall because the urinals were so close together. I wanted to say, "That what I love the most about the ballpark!" They seemed to hate to show their young dicks and I can't wait to show my older dick and in turn see other old dicks. Funny how we have a different perception of the urinals.
I'll let everyone know how I make out at the ballpark tomorrow.
Friday 11:08PM 03/26/04
I saw more old dicks at the ballpark Thursday than I've seen in one day except for a visit to Haulover Beach. I saw old big dick, old little dicks, old cut dicks, old uncut dicks. I must have visited the restroom twenty times! I drank lots of beer so that I would have a real reason for so many trips. It was fun to see all those old straight men taking a piss!
I don't know which enjoyed the baseball game more, my sister and her husband or the kids. They got several players to autograph their baseballs. I bought them two spring training baseballs and they were so pleased with them. It was a fantastic day for everyone!
And last night my sister twisted my arm to take here and her husband out. They wanted me to be the driver. So I took them to a sleazy biker bar on Prospect. They shot pool and we all played a dart game. All this while Dieter kept my two nephews company at the apartment. My sister drank and drank. The woman bartender liked her and my sister went along with her. It was a hoot.
But my sister paid for her sins today! She was in bed almost all day. The kids sleep late too and only went swimming for a short time while Dieter and I was in Fort Lauderdale for me to mail some DVD's and check my P.O. Box. And man did I have lots of orders for my latest movie "Pete's Kinky Old Men!" I will be busy this weekend burning disks!
About 5:00PM my sister packed everyone in the car and headed back to Dothan, Alabama. I was very sad to see the boys leave. I just can tell you how much I enjoyed them. Reminded me of my bother and I when we were kids. They younger boy, Cody, looks just like my brother at that age. Yes, I get a sense of what I'm missed how getting married and having kids. But, hell, you can't change the way you are. I'm gay and wouldn't have ever been happy married.
I'm going to try to visit my nephews in Alabama in July when they are out of school. I do really miss them already. Just seeing them have so much fun was delightful. The older boy went fishing in our lakes here in the complex and caught so really big Large Mouth Bass! He was in heaven. And I bought the younger boy a basketball game for his play station2 (March Madness). He loved the game!
Yes, I really miss them. Was like being a kid all over again.
Sunday 9:31PM 03/28/04
Even though it's early, I'm tried. Played tennis with Ted this morning. He won, of course, but it was a close set . . .6 to 5. Oh, well, I got lots of exercise. My mind has been on my nephews today. I'm missing them terribly. Playing tennis helped take my mind off them. But then Ted said, hey they will be teenagers soon and will not want anything to do with you as they start going their own way. And I guess he's right. But it sure would be nice to be near enough to them to see them grow up and to contribute in their education.
Yoshi (Dieter's Japanese friend) arrived today. So, we all went to Tropics for cocktails before dinner. I cooked when we retuned home. Yoshi likes chubby men over 60. He's down here to do interviews with some Japanese baseball players. He is a nice guy but a whirl wind! Always on the move.
Will play tennis tomorrow morning and then go the Fort Lauderdale to mail a basket full of DVD's and check my PO Box. I'm going to check on the restroom at Coral Ridge to see if it's back in business. I hope it is. Maybe when I return I'll go to the gym tomorrow afternoon. God, it seems like months since I've been there. I need to see some naked old men in the sauna!!!
Going to try to write another story this week. Don't know exactly what it's going to be about. Hell, something will cum to me. I hope it's hot enough that I jack off while writing it. That's the type of stories that I love to write. But usually the ones that I think are hot no one else likes. Got a couple of new ads that I've got to put on the Senior Date Finder page this week also.
Damn, this month is almost over. I swear time is slipping away! In August Dieter and I will have lived here for one year. All I can say is that it's been a wonderful year. And I thank all that have joined the website or bought videos as that has help make the year so great.
Ok, time to head to bed. I'm tried and a little depressed. I think a good night's sleep will help.
Tuesday 5:06PM 03/30/04
Damn, how did I get on a schedule of posting every two days. Shit, got to stop that. But then nothing in the world is going on. Yesterday I played tennis with Ted (yes, the little skinny shit beat me again) and that was it. Yoshi wasn't suppose to come home for supper as he was visiting someone up in Jupiter but then he arrive at the condo hungry at 9:00PM. I just told him the kitchen was his and he fixed him something quick to eat.
We all went to Tropics on Sunday night. Was fun. I saw an old man with a mustache from Alabama, I think, in the restroom. I had seen him many times before. He has a lover and sometimes we do a little touch and feel. Well we didn't do that but I sure showed him my hard on and he showed me his. Was fun.
Today I beat Ted in tennis. You know, he says that he just plays tennis for the exercise but when I beat him it really gets to him. I beginning to learn that he pretends not to care about a lot of things but he does care. Of course when he loses he has an excuse. When I lose I know I didn't play good enough. And every time I say one thing he contradicts it or says "oh, that doesn't matter or that happens to everyone." So, slowly but surely I'm beginning to see how he ticks. I can see that he's a control freak (well so am I). But if you confronted him with it he would deny it. Strange how some people have this self image that is totally wrong. I think if there's one thing I am is realistic about who and what I am. Any way, he's just a friend that I play tennis with and have totally no sexual interest in so I'll take him as he is and let it be. But, I think my tennis game will continue to improve and his will not improve as fast. As I know, it takes me a long time to learn to do something but once I get the hang of it, I do improve. Of course, there is going to be a point beyond which I can improve. My body isn't what it use to be nor my mind.
I would love to get good enough to play with some of these old men, especially the ones that I find attractive. And there are several. It's going to be interesting to see how many are here all year around. I think that sooner or later, I will indeed meet one that I start playing tennis with and maybe even play under the covers with. Hey, a guy can fantasize!
OK, I finally when to the gym this afternoon around 2:00PM. Wasn't anyone in the locker room or the sauna. And I set in the sauna for at least thirty minutes. Hell, finally I put on my bathing suit and went out and got in the Jacuzzi. So, all three of the old men inside had on their bathing suits. But one was sitting on the rim of the Jacuzzi and every time he lifted his legs to let the water jets play along his feet, I could seen his large balls. I think he knew I was watching his balls. He was one of the Holocaust survivors as he had numbers tattooed on his arm and a strong accent. He was tall and skinny and very nice looking. I would have loved to sex with him or at least to see him naked.
Everyone left the Jacuzzi except me and I was just fixing to get out when another old slim good looking man wearing sunglasses and a white baseballs cap came in. Well he moved from one water jet to the other letting the water massage his entire body as I watched and occasionally reached down my hand and grouped my crotch hoping he would see what I was doing. Well, I don't think he was noticing so I finally left. I went back into the sauna for about ten minutes but when no one came in I left to take a shower. As I approached the showers I heard a shower running and headed straight toward it.
The slim good looking old man from the Jacuzzi with the white baseball cap was taking a shower with the curtain wide open. Well, I stood there watching him for a minute before jumping in the shower myself. I just rinsed off and jumped back out of the shower and stood in front of his shower stall watching him shower as I dried off. He was gorgeous! He had a nice longish, thickish, cut dick and nice low hanging balls. He was soaping his face so I just stare all I wanted to. But then a worker cleaning the shower stalls came over, I had to move on. But it was great while it lasted. I do think I'll visit the gym around 2:00 PM whenever I get the chance. Damn, there is always something to see there!
Wednesday 9:35 PM 04/31/04
Well, Yoshi left for New York this afternoon, but before he did we all had lunch at the Alibi. Was some good looking old men there. I sure did some eyeballing. We had a good time. I do enjoy the Alibi for lunch.
Played tennis with Ted this morning. He bet me the first set 6 to 3 and I bet him the second set 6 to 4. He didn't like losing the second set. He said I'm to competitive and he doesn't have fun when I try too hard to win. Yea, like he trying to lose! I know bullshit when I hear it. Yes, I'm competitive but so is he. He just makes a big deal out of saying that he just plays for the exercise. Well, you know, it's not what you say it's how you act that tell the story. And believe me he was hitting every dink shot he could to kept me from winning. But, yes, I am damn competitive. Ted is a better player than I am, but what I lack in skill I make up for in determination. He might as well get use to it.
Went to the gym this afternoon. But because we went to the Alibi, I got there later than I intended. The old man with the white baseball cap wasn't there. I did see one very old gray haired man undressing. His body was moon pale and skinny. He had a nice size uncut dick and some beautiful low hanging balls.
I also talked to a old woman while I was in the Jacuzzi. She looked to be in her late 70's. She was tall and slim and very talkative. And as we chatted, I imagined eating her pussy and the fucking her. And I bet I could get in her pants. I bet some of these old Jewish women are dying for a cock. Maybe if the right opportunity comes along I'll try fucking one.
Oh, almost forgot. Ted and I have met two old men that past couple of days as we walked to the tennis courts. Well, today I started a conversation with them. One looked to be about 70 and the other near 90. The younger one I am sure likes to play around by the way he was talking and I bet he does it with the older man. Myself I like the older man. He as skinny with a heavy accent. He lives here all year around, he said. Ted told me later that he had seen a wedding ring on the older one's finger. The 70yo was from Jersey. Was darker, like maybe an Italian. I hope we run into them tomorrow on the way to play tennis!
I really want to make some contacts here. Wonder just how long it is going to take me to meet someone special . . .